My Apologies.

"Are you going out with him?"
"Are you actually hanging out with them?"
"Why did you ditch us?"
"Did I just see you talk to him?"

These are some questions I get asked everyday at school. It gets rather annoying but the truth is, I don't give a crap what you say or do to me. Just don't bring anyone else into your own fucking problems. Dodge everything that gets thrown you way. Walk away from you past experiences.

That's really easy to type. It's not easy to do. Everyone interprets the world differently. Everyone thinks differently and everyone lives differently. There is every story behind a picture and the picture is you. Paint it however you want but no matter how hard you try, everyone will still look at it differently...look at you differently.

I know I'm lame for realizing that now and I'm sorry.

I was trying to please people so badly and I failed. As always. It's just I'm sorry but I can't be the person you want me to be. To my ex-best friends: I would never hate you no matter how many times I've said it. I just think that like I said before, you guys see everything differently from how I see it. 2. To my ex-boyfriend: We are similar in many ways and that's what's bad. We don't harmonize. I really did like you and I still do, just not in the way I used to. You can keep calling me a bitch or whatever but even you know that what you've been saying about me for the
past month or two isn't true. 3. To all my friends: I'm such a bitch and I can't believe you put up with me, which is a good thing. I should rightfully apologize for my stupidness.

Some people would probably read this and laugh. Some people probably won't know what the hell I'm saying. And I'm just going to accept that. This blog might be pointless. Like I said, people interpret things differently. I accept that.

xoxo