Rock Bottom.

Today was quite a remarkable day. It had highs and lows...then it hit rock bottom. This morning, when I woke up, I already knew something was going to go totally wrong. I don't know how i knew it but i just did.

Remember how I said I overthink everything? Yeah, well I guess I overthought the essay contest because I lost to my friend. Now, that didn't really bother me, after all, I didn't even think I was gonna win but losing isn't such a good feeling either. That started my day off on a terrible note.

Have you ever lied to impress someone or to seem cooler? Yeah, well, just yesterday, when I was talking to my friend on the phone, I said something I shouldn't have said. It was about another person and today, she had told him. It was all a big fat lie and I totally fucked up. This resulted in misunderstandings, anger, and then chaos.

Wait...that's not all. To top evey fucking thing off, I got a C+ as my teacher's assistant grade. (I know, it sounds totally stupid.) But anyways, that's not what made me mad. You start out with an A and then you go down 1/2 a grade for every fucking mistake. The students have to choose what you did wrong. Remember how I mentioned bitches before? (I really shouldn't put this online.) Well, one of 'em said that I was awkward and the my eyes were really big for part of the time. What ticks me off is she used to be my friend. And i'm not saying you can't criticize me. (I'm the most insultable person on the face of earth) I'm just saying that I have eyes on my fucking face and it's not gonna go anywhere and run off so what the fuck am I supposed to do?

I just scrolled up to see what I wrote. It said there were highs and lows. I was wrong. I think when I woke up, I was already in rock bottom.

xoxo